What I am thinking recently...

A week ago, a famous Japanese actress, Yoshiko Tanaka passed away, at the age of 55. She had breast cancer. The Japanese people of my generation also know her as "Sue-chan", from Candies, who used to be a super idol group of three, back in our childhood days. One month before she passed away, she tape-recorded her voice, telling how she felt and thanking everybody, especially her husband. Her voice message was played at her funeral...She was so weak. She was speaking very slowly. But her message was very strong. I could tell that she really loved acting and she was regretting that she could not act anymore...So many things she wanted to say but had to stop because speaking made her get very tired...But everyone got her message. I really couldn't stop crying when I heard this...

Just after I wrote my previous blog, my father-in-law passed away. This happened so fast. He also had cancer. Big intestine cancer...Only his wife new that he was struggling through this. Even his son, my husband, wasn't told. We were told that he could only live for a few months but actually he could only live for a few days after we were told about this...
It happened so quickly that even now I can't believe he's gone.

2 people ended their lives in their own way. One, leaving her last message to the world , the other, leaving this world quietly...

I am turning 40 this August. The average life expectancy of Japanese women is about 80, which means, this year will be my turning point. The beginning of a latter half of my life. Of course you never know what's going to happen in your life. I might live longer or maybe I've already passed my turning point. Only God knows.

Facing the death, seeing the tragedy in the Tohoku region (the big earthquake and tsunami), I cannot stop thinking how I should live my life that I am given.

For me, my happiness is to make people happy, to make people smile. I think it's my nature that I just love to do things for my family, for my loving friends, and also to the people I don't really know. But actually I have not done much for the people in the affected areas which makes me struggle sometimes(((

Changing the subject, not making this blog go sad...
One thing I was REALLY happy about recently was that I gave Asahi-chan 2 BIG surprises for her birthday! Asahi-chan's sister came all the way from France for her birthday and her sister and I had been planning this since December! When Asahi-chan came back home from school, her sister was waiting in her room! They had not seen each other for 8 months! Her scream, tears, and joy, made us all cry. And on her birthday, I threw a surprise party, my very FIRST surprise party! I secretly contacted 5 of her good friends from school. When she came back home from school, we greeted her with party crackers! She screamed and cried again!!! The hug that she gave me, I would never forget it. My plan all worked!!! She said to me, "This was the greatest birthday that I've had in 19 years!" I was SO HAPPY!

When this turns into a success, it becomes so fun and exciting, now I'm thinking who to make super happy!)))

I hope to live my latter half of my life, with no regrets. Believe in what I'm doing and don't give up.
And stay true to my heart.